It has been more than 5 months since I met up with any guy from the internet. I haven't been much of an active member in the internet community and I usually only respond/return in kind to people who send me 'hearts'. Due to my extremely limited logon time, the popularity of my personal profile suffered. Very rarely do people chance upon my profile and even rarer would anyone send a sympathetic 'heart'. Well, I don't have the hunk-next-door look; in addition, I suspect that the 'age' factor has further depreciated the value of my profile (and hence my self-marketability). Well, in terms of gay lifetime, once you hit 30, you're as good as finished. Time to retire.
Until recently, two guys visited my profile. 'Hearts' were exchanged and soon enough, both suggested that we meet up. One guy hailed from Cheras (doesn't half the KL gay population live there?); the other closer to home. Cheras guy suggested I come over to Miharja. It is a bit far from where I live, plus I'm not very familiar with that area. Hence, I counter proposed a 'neutral' place midway between my home and his place, KLCC or BB would be the best. He was reluctant to meet in town, and suggested Ampang Point, which is still rather close to his home. Again, it is an unfamiliar place for me to be meeting a stranger at night. I am beginning to sense that he is just plain lazy to travel beyond 5 km from his home. Why the fuck do I have to be the one who has to travel across suburbs just to meet you? You're the Queen of Cheras is it? When I re-proposed KLCC again, his last sms reads: "Sorry, not coming to town. Take care!"
Whatever la... And I am damn sorry too!
As for the other guy, we met up at an agreed familiar and convenient place. But unfortunately, as much as he claims that he is over his ex-BF, it really doesn't appear that he has. I spent like over an hour listening to the details of how and why his relationship failed, and what a loser his ex was... Excuse me, I didn't come to meet up with you to listen to your grudges against your ex. Why he see it fit to share such personal information with me... I certainly could not figure out. But of course, I was as usual, polite, and I sat through it, subtly trying to change the topic by asking other aspects about himself. I soon realized he took little interest in anything else but himself, his work and his ex.
Why do I subject myself to such painful meetings? It's almost always the same situations. This internet/online dating approach hadn't been successful for me the past 6 years, and so why bother anymore?
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